In past, alone I did awake to thunderous break
And now beside me with beating heart
your soft sighs caress open my eyes.
Smiling among silent trees we stand apart
our lips have uttered the sacred word
LOVE- holding the lonely soul.
Pity it is for tender cries
emanating into forgotten skies.
Her presence to me seems to be
A blossom never before seen.
While wandering in the morning gray.
what her name is, I do not know
A name I wish to say.
So I sought a warm reply-
But regretfully she is not to be mine.
Walking in the midnight hour
thru street after street in these abandoned cities
while Winter rains slap our vacant faces.
Lost to this unforgiving world-
Lost to ourselves.
Promised intentions forgotten
at the bottom of frosted mugs of ale
sitting on mirrored glass counters
in smoke filled pubs that no longer exist
except in memory,
but still we continue to seek
the cold city streets
for leather padded stools
where, for so many drunk & wasted years,
alone we sat-
to forget this unforgiving world-
to forget ourselves.
The dream fueled fires
of her seductively haunting emerald eyes
Are reflected in rose stained molten skies
and swept on frigid whispers of Autumn winds,
while he searches for her in pale midnight suns.
"I'D GRACIOUSLY DIE FOR YOU!"
He yelled into the star-pierced emptiness of night.
"OUR LOVE WAS TRUE!"
To the peace shattering thunder
of a midnight April storm I awoke
With hail stones pelting stained glass murals
of some forgotten saint
in a lone abandoned church slowly rotting
on a grass and thistle overgrown hill
somewhere in the desolate sandhills
of my Nebraska where I had
faithfully wandered far thru
every reality betraying day
and every night with insomniac dreams
of sleep as I come close
to the end of my death fearing life.
Every sacred breath I take-
every toe blistering step I take
brings me close to the
yearned freedom of my restless soul
from this prison of impure flesh.
Words to hurt you, I never meant to say-
Never meant to destroy you.
While I dream of rest & rise while you fall.
Let the rain shade you from me.
The rain I caught in my soul.
Picking pieces of myself from you.
You are the reason I haven't forgotten
Who I am, Who I will ever be.
I buried you today
And watched as April rain
shattered upon your freshly filled grave.
Upon the red and white roses
as they began to wilt and fall.
Alone
I stood, exhausted
until the dark of night swallowed all of me.
And slowly I walked to the silent park-
To where we watched midnight stars
under the pale of the moon.
I knelt to run my trembling hand
thru the rain slicked grass,
While I turned my anger twisted face
into the wind driven rain…
…and released the explosions
of my foreboding pain.
But even if I could see you
I would not recognize your face.
Long it's been since I've seen your emerald eyes
thru my hallucinations of you
I remember my lips ached for your kiss,
my body ached for your touch.
You're a storm washing over me-
Words fall down as rain
Wash away the puddle I've become.
She wanted to believe this rain was over.
She wanted to believe that this world wasn't cold,
But in this feeling she's been wading
& in this silence she believes
in the starlight she is bleeding-
it all fades out.
A strange territory this city has become,
A faded painting left behind.
in her eyes it's always been
And always it's in her smile.
Her breath on my neck I lie awake remembering-
leaves blowing around my feet.
& upon azure skies, I'll blaze her emerald gaze-
kiss the midnight stars for her
& breathe the shimmering world away
to rize in satellite.
Her eyes cast radiant guize-
Casting shadows upon the pavement
of my native Lincoln, Nebraska
where winds wash away her tears
to splash them upon my toes.
